Crazy week

This has been a crazy week. It’s my last week working with my current employer, but they are still in the middle of a major ERP implementation project I was leading. So this week has been all about working with a consultant to do everything we could to define the state of the project, and hand everything off to the department heads and a temporary “point person”.

They are also trying to hire a new Project Manager to replace me on this. I have HIGH hopes that this project soars from here on out with a proper project manager because I know I failed in that aspect.  I could easily handle the IT side of things…  Reports, Programming, Customization, even training…  But I’m not an organized, meticulous, process seeking/defining project manager and that is exactly what is needed.

Aside from feeling a bit worthless, it’s been a little hard to get all the grief from everyone about leaving (much less leaving things in the state that they are… Unfinished.) Most of it has been said in jest, but I can’t help but feel a bit down. Like I failed them & I’m running away. I suppose I did. And I am. [sigh] I don’t like admitting defeat.

Even though it’s the night before my last day, I’ve been logged in remotely customizing screens, documenting procedures, and doing everything I can to get as much as possible done. I REALLY don’t want to leave them hanging. I want to leave with some sense of accomplishment, but at what point am I just bailing water from a sunken ship.

I find my self seriously hoping they contact me to help them train my replacement (on an hourly contract basis of course) only because I am a terrible project manager and there is so much stuff left undocumented and straggling in my head that I wouldn’t know where to begin to put it all on paper. The good news is that I know the current candidate for my replacement and she knows me well enough to know that (in the business world) I’m a geek first, and anything else second. I hope she gets the job. At least then I can feel comfortable keeping in touch & working with her if that’s how they decide to move forward (making use of my off-time).

On another note….

I’ve been emailing back & forth with my new employer a bit and it’s good to know I’m walking in to a place where I fit in. I’m going to be walking into the middle of a major office move (including production servers) and I’ve been able to put in my 2 cents about how we could/should go about some of it & it’s been received well. I’m feeling mildly useful.

I’m tired.

I’m sad.

Good night.